improvement

i thought we learned from our mistakes,
but i guess we became them,
gauzes of lies and regrets break our bones,
and all there is left to do,
is to shake our heads.

drugs

addiction feeds me better than water,
i live off absence, can’t you tell?
keep your syringe away from me,
let me beg a bit stronger,
the lack of you in me,
sustains me a bit longer.

algebra

i never imagine anyone
more than i imagine her
she is the variable in the equation
the X i keep trying to solve for
but you have left out so many details
so i hide in the unknown
as you whisk her away,
all your problems solved.

slits

she bleeds in her suicide,
and i found a metronome in the red lines she hides,
her heart is beating (at least for now),
but her skin are scars (at least it’s not bleeding now),
so what do i do? (i feel so helpless now)

s p a c e d

may symphonies be the echo,

that you kiss your lover to sleep,

every night,

i’ll make my way,

out of your moonlight,

into the silent noise,

of the silent night.

privacy

i read your thoughts,
in the secrecy of midnight’s dusk,
even though you never whispered your key to me,
i have broken in with a picklock,
feel free to call me a trespasser,
while i revel in your confessions.

chasing

slur me sonnet,
praise me like spilled rum,
dance the sunrise like the world is ending,
blur vodka into my crevices,
note my disintegration,
and hold me close.

harmony

i may be tone deaf
but your name is music
even though i can’t stand the sound
she makes, screaming it at the top of her lungs
as you press her up against the bedpost.

armistice

maybe this was just a fallout,
maybe this war has no ending,
like a bedtime story that trailed off as you fell asleep,
maybe this is just a break,
a pause so catch your breath,
because maybe this is just the beginning,
and there’s a whole battlefield for blood to be shed.

honesty

why can’t you say this to me sober?
you’re slurring your words, and you’re blurring my mind,
you’re caught in the bottom of the bottle,
and you stink of alcohol and cigar smoke,
fuck this, this isn’t bravery, this is cowardice.